Here is my life:

I'm sitting on my bed completely overwhelmed by the two exams which I didn't have enough time to study for cramming. I am drinking coffee..or milk with coffee in it because of my propensity to over-drink coffee and completely overwhelm myself, thus having panic attacks. My boyfriend calls and I snap at him, instantly irritated with him for no reason and with myself for being a total B. I pass out.
The next morning, I get a text message at 5am telling me that my first test is cancelled due to inclement weather IN CENTRAL TEXAS. And, instantly, I am relieved.

This is my last semester (as far as I know) at this University. I'm sitting here with so many options and possibilities that I just don't know which one to choose.
On one hand, there is the epic and magical land of Graduate School. IF (and it's a huge IF) I am accepted into grad school, I have the option to either defer my enrollment or simply attend and get the shit over with. BUT here's the thing: not feeling like you are ready for grad school and actually going creates a recipe for disaster, and ultimately failure.
Another option is to TRY to find a job as a SLPA..seemingly the most few and far in-between job out there. Yeah, of course there is the possibility of getting one..but I feel like there is almost no chance and that makes me not even want to try.
I've also been playing with the idea of teaching English in another country..but the thing with that is that almost every program requires a TEFL and that is something that costs money...I just feel like if it's not something that I'm super passionate about, then maybe I shouldn't do it...I'm not sure.
A fourth option would be to substitute teach in public schools for a year. Showing that I have the experience of working with children will show that I care and have credibility. It will ultimately boost my resume..but so would teaching in another country.

Basically, I'm a little lost. I don't know where I'll be living in the next few months, or where my life will take me.
Thinking about it, now, it might be helpful to make a goals list(to complete before I turn 30):
1. GRADUATE
2. Go to Graduate School and...
3. GRADUATE AGAIN
4. Get a dog and love him/her with all of my heart
5. Get a hedgehog
6. Car, new or used
7. Do something that makes me happy

Anyways, this is where I currently stand. In college, with a room-mate, have a boyfriend, and longing for a dog.
Peace.

I know it's random, but that's ok.